WhenGodbeholdsourfaults,Heseesalsoourrepentance。Yes,mybelovedmistress,youareright。IfeltthatIhaddispleasedyou,butknewnothow。Nowthatyouhaveexplainedthecauseofyourtrouble,I
findinitfreshmotivetoadoreyou。LiketheGodofIsrael,youareajealousdeity,andIrejoicetoseeit。Forwhatisholierandmorepreciousthanjealousy?Myfairguardianangel,jealousyisanever-
wakefulsentinel;itistolovewhatpainistothebody,thefaithfulheraldofevil。Bejealousofyourservant,Louise,Ibegofyou;theharderyoustrike,themorecontritewillhebeandkisstherod,inallsubmission,whichprovesthatheisnotindifferenttoyou。
But,alas!dear,ifthepainsitcostmetovanquishmytimidityandmasterfeelingsyouthoughtsofeeblewereinvisibletoyou,willHeaven,thinkyou,rewardthem?Iassureyou,itneedednoslightefforttoshowmyselftoyouasIwasinthedaysbeforeIloved。AtMadridIwasconsideredagoodtalker,andIwantedyoutoseeforyourselfthefewgiftsImaypossess。Ifthiswerevanity,ithasbeenwellpunished。
Yourlastglanceutterlyunnervedme。NeverhadIsoquailed,evenwhenthearmyofFrancewasatthegatesofCadizandIreadperilformylifeinthedissemblingwordsofmyroyalmaster。VainlyItriedtodiscoverthecauseofyourdispleasure,andthelackofsympathybetweenuswhichthisfactdisclosedwasterribletome。ForintruthIhavenowishbuttoactbyyourwill,thinkyourthoughts,seewithyoureyes,respondtoyourjoyandsuffering,asmybodyrespondstoheatandcold。Thecrimeandtheanguishlayformeinthebreachofunisoninthatcommonlifeoffeelingwhichyouhavemadesofair。