Chapter17
`Yousee，Hilda，’saidConnieafterlunch，whentheywerenearingLondon，`youhaveneverknowneitherrealtendernessorrealsensuality：andifyoudoknowthem，withthesameperson，itmakesagreatdifference。’
`Formercy’ssakedon’tbragaboutyourexperiences!’saidHilda。`I’venevermetthemanyetwhowascapableofintimacywithawoman，givinghimselfuptoher。ThatwaswhatIwanted。I’mnotkeenontheirself-satisfiedtenderness，andtheirsensuality。I’mnotcontenttobeanyman’slittlepetsy-wetsy，norhischairà；plaisireither。Iwantedacompleteintimacy，andIdidn’tgetit。That’senoughforme。
Connieponderedthis。Completeintimacy!Shesupposedthatmeantrevealingeverythingconcerningyourselftotheotherperson，andhisrevealingeverythingconcerninghimself。Butthatwasabore。Andallthatwearyself-consciousnessbetweenamanandawoman!adisease!
`Ithinkyou’retooconsciousofyourselfallthetime，witheverybody，’