Herloveforherfatherseemedtoreturnwithpainfulforce,mixedupasitwaswithhorrorathiscrime。Thatdearfatherwhowasoncesokind,sowarm-hearted,soreadytohelpeithermanorbeastindistress,tomurder!
Butinthedesertofmiserywithwhichthesethoughtssurroundedher,theariddepthsofwhosegloomshedarednotventuretocon-template,alittlespringofcomfortwasgushingupatherfeet,unnoticedatfirst,butsoontogiveherstrengthandhope。Andthatwasthenecessityforexertiononherpartwhichthisdiscoveryenforced。Oh!Idothinkthatthenecessityforexertion,forsomekindofactionbodilyormentallyintimeofdistress,isamostinfiniteblessing,althoughthefirsteffortsatsuchseasonsarepainful。Somethingtobedoneimpliesthatthereisyethopeofsomegoodthingtobeaccomplished,orsomeadditionalevilthatmaybeavoided;andbydegreesthehopeabsorbsmuchofthesorrow。Itisthewoesthatcannotinanyearthlywaybeescapedthatadmitleastearthlycomforting。Ofalltrite,worn-out,hollowmockeriesofcomfortthatwe’reeverutteredbypeoplewhowillnottakethetroubleofsympathizingwithothers,theoneIdislikethemostistheexhortationnottogrieveoveranevent,“foritcannotbehelped。“DoyouthinkifIcouldhelpit,Iwouldsitstillwithfoldedhands,content’tomourn?DoyounotbelievethataslongashoperemainedIwouldbeupanddoing?Imournbecausewhathasoccurredcannotbehelped。Thereasonyougivemefornotgrieving,istheveryandsolereasonofmygrief。GivemenoblerandhigherreasonsforenduringmeeklywhatmyFatherseesfittosend,andIwilltryearnestlyandfaithfullytobepatient;butmockmenot,oranyothermourner,withthespeech,“Donotgrieve,foritcannotbehelped。
Itispastremedy。“ButsomeremedytoMary’ssorrowcamewiththinking。Ifherfatherwasguilty,Jemwasinnocent。Ifinnocent,therewasapossibilityofsavinghim。Hemustbesaved。Andshemustdoit;for,wasnotshethesoledepositaryoftheterriblesecret?Herfatherwasnotsuspected;andnevershouldbe,ifbyanyforesightoranyexertionsofherownshecouldpreventit。ShedidnotknowhowJemwastobesaved,whileherfatherwasalsotobeconsideredinnocent,itwouldrequiremuchthought,andmuchprudence。
Butwiththecalluponherexertions,andhervariousqualitiesofjudgementanddiscretion,cametheansweringconsciousnessofinnatepowertomeettheemergency。Everystepnow,nay,theemploymentofeveryminute,wasofconsequence;foryoumustremembershehadlearntatMissSimmonds’
theprobabilitythatthemurdererwouldbebroughttotrialthenextweek。