ThesightofLondonwarmedmyheartwithvariousemotions,suchasacordialmanmustdrawfromtheheartofallhumanity。Heretherearequickwaysandmanners,andtherapidsenseofknowledge,andthepowerofunderstanding,ereawordbespoken。WhereasatOare,youmustsayathingthreetimes,veryslowly,beforeitgetsinsidetheskullofthegoodmanyouareaddressing。Andyetwearefarmoreclevertherethaninanyparishforfifteenmiles。
Butwhatmovedmemost,whenIsawagainthenobleoilandtallowoftheLondonlights,andthedrippingtorchesatalmosteverycorner,andthehandsomesignboards,wasthethoughtthatheremyLornalived,andwalked,andtooktheair,andperhapsthoughtnowandthenoftheolddaysinthegoodfarm-house。
AlthoughIwouldmakenoapproachtoher,anymorethanshehaddonetomeuponwhichgriefIhavenotdwelt,forfearofseemingselfish,yettheremustbesomelargechance,orthelittlechancemightbeenlarged,offallinginwiththemaidensomehow,andlearninghowhermindwasset。Ifagainstme,allshouldbeover。
Iwasnotthemantosighandcryforlove,likeaRomeo:noneshouldevenguessmygrief,exceptmysisterAnnie。
ButifLornalovedmestill——asinmyheartofheartsI