NowIwassofaratrestwithmyself,whenSundaycame,knowingthatIhadconqueredmyownmistrust,andrightedBrotherHawkyardinthejaundicedvisionofarival,thatIwent,eventothatcoarsechapel,inalesssensitivestatethanusual。HowcouldI
foreseethatthedelicate,perhapsthediseased,cornerofmymind,whereIwincedandshrunkwhenitwastouched,orwasevenapproached,wouldbehandledasthethemeofthewholeproceedings?
OnthisoccasionitwasassignedtoBrotherHawkyardtopray,andtoBrotherGimblettopreach。Theprayerwastoopentheceremonies;thediscoursewastocomenext。BrothersHawkyardandGimbletwerebothontheplatform;BrotherHawkyardonhiskneesatthetable,unmusicallyreadytopray;BrotherGimbletsittingagainstthewall,grinninglyreadytopreach。
’Letusofferupthesacrificeofprayer,mybrothersandsistersandfellow—sinners。’Yes;butitwasIwhowasthesacrifice。Itwasourpoor,sinful,worldly—mindedbrotherherepresentwhowaswrestledfor。Thenow—openingcareerofthisourunawakenedbrothermightleadtohisbecomingaministerofwhatwascalled’thechurch。’ThatwaswhatHElookedto。Thechurch。Notthechapel,Lord。Thechurch。Norectors,novicars,noarchdeacons,nobishops,noarchbishops,inthechapel,but,OLord!manysuchinthechurch。Protectoursinfulbrotherfromhisloveoflucre。
Cleansefromourunawakenedbrother’sbreasthissinofworldly—