Ernestwasnowwellturnedtwenty-sixyearsold,andinlittlemorethananotheryearandahalfwouldcomeintopossessionofhismoney。IsawnoreasonforlettinghimhaveitearlierthanthedatefixedbyMissPontifexherself;atthesametimeIdidnotlikehiscontinuingtheshopatBlackfriarsafterthepresentcrisis。ItwasnottillnowthatIfullyunderstoodhowmuchhehadsuffered,norhownearlyhissupposedwife’shabitshadbroughthimtoactualwant。
Ihadindeednotedtheoldwanwornlooksettlinguponhisface,butwaseithertooindolentortoohopelessofbeingabletosustainaprotractedandsuccessfulwarfarewithEllentoextendthesympathyandmaketheinquirieswhichIsupposeIoughttohavemade。AndyetIhardlyknowwhatIcouldhavedone,fornothingshortofhisfindingoutwhathehadfoundoutwouldhavedetachedhimfromhiswife,andnothingcoulddohimmuchgoodaslongashecontinuedtolivewithher。
AfterallIsupposeIwasright;Isupposethingsdidturnoutallthebetterintheendforhavingbeenlefttosettlethemselves——atanyratewhethertheydidordidnot,thewholethingwasintoogreatamuddleformetoventuretotackleitsolongasEllenwasuponthescene;now,however,thatshewasremoved,allmyinterestinmygodsonrevived,andIturnedovermanytimesinmymind,whatIhadbetterdowithhim。
ItwasnowthreeandahalfyearssincehehadcomeuptoLondonandbeguntolive,sotospeak,uponhisownaccount。Oftheseyears,sixmonthshadbeenspentasaclergyman,sixmonthsingaol,andfortwoandahalfyearshehadbeenacquiringtwofoldexperienceinthewaysofbusinessandofmarriage。Hehadfailed,Imaysay,ineverythingthathehadundertaken,evenasaprisoner;yethisdefeatshadbeenalways,asitseemedtome,somethingsolikevictories,thatIwassatisfiedofhisbeingworthallthepainsI
couldbestowuponhim;myonlyfearwaslestIshouldmeddlewithhimwhenitmightbebetterforhimtobeletalone。OnthewholeI