Reallyfromhisownstandpointtherewasnothingveryoutrageousinwhathewasdoing。HehadknownandbeenveryfondofEllenyearsbefore。Heknewhertocomeofrespectablepeople,andtohaveborneagoodcharacter,andtohavebeenuniversallylikedatBattersby。Shewasthenaquick,smart,hard-workinggirl——andaveryprettyone。Whenatlasttheymetagainshewasonherbestbehaviour,infact,shewasmodestyanddemurenessitself。Whatwonder,then,thathisimaginationshouldfailtorealisethechangesthateightyearsmusthaveworked?Heknewtoomuchagainsthimself,andwastoobankruptinlovetobesqueamish;ifEllenhadbeenonlywhathethoughther,andifhisprospectshadbeeninrealitynobetterthanhebelievedtheywere,IdonotknowthatthereisanythingmuchmoreimprudentinwhatErnestproposedthanthereisinhalfthemarriagesthattakeplaceeveryday。
Therewasnothingforit,however,buttomakethebestoftheinevitable,soIwishedmyyoungfriendgoodfortune,andtoldhimhecouldhavewhatevermoneyhewantedtostarthisshopwith,ifwhathehadinhandwasnotsufficient。Hethankedme,askedmetobekindenoughtolethimdoallmymendingandrepairing,andtogethimanyotherlikeordersthatIcould,andleftmetomyownreflections。
IwasevenmoreangrywhenhewasgonethanIhadbeenwhilehewaswithme。Hisfrank,boyishfacehadbeamedwithahappinessthathadrarelyvisitedit。ExceptatCambridgehehadhardlyknownwhathappinessmeant,andeventherehislifehadbeencloudedasofamanforwhomwisdomatthegreatestofitsentranceswasquiteshutout。Ihadseenenoughoftheworldandofhimtohaveobservedthis,butitwasimpossible,orIthoughtithadbeenimpossible,formetohavehelpedhim。
WhetherIoughttohavetriedtohelphimornotIdonotknow,butIamsurethattheyoungofallanimalsoftendowanthelpuponmattersaboutwhichanyonewouldsayapriorithatthereshouldbenodifficulty。Onewouldthinkthatayoungsealwouldwantnoteachinghowtoswim,noryetabirdtofly,butinpracticeayoungsealdrownsifputoutofitsdepthbeforeitsparentshavetaughtittoswim;andsoagain,eventheyounghawkmustbetaughttoflybeforeitcandoso。
Igrantthatthetendencyofthetimesistoexaggeratethegoodwhichteachingcando,butintryingtoteachtoomuch,inmostmatters,wehaveneglectedothersinrespectofwhichalittlesensibleteachingwoulddonoharm。