“DearestMissChristina,——IdonotknowwhetheryouhaveguessedthefeelingsthatIhavelongentertainedforyou——feelingswhichIhaveconcealedasmuchasIcouldthroughfearofdrawingyouintoanengagementwhich,ifyouenterintoit,mustbeprolongedforaconsiderabletime,but,howeverthismaybe,itisoutofmypowertoconcealthemlonger;Iloveyou,ardently,devotedly,andsendthesefewlinesaskingyoutobemywife,becauseIdarenottrustmytonguetogiveadequateexpressiontothemagnitudeofmyaffectionforyou。
“Icannotpretendtoofferyouaheartwhichhasneverknowneitherloveordisappointment。Ihavelovedalready,andmyheartwasyearsinrecoveringfromthegriefIfeltatseeingherbecomeanother’s。That,however,isover,andhavingseenyourselfI
rejoiceoveradisappointmentwhichIthoughtatonetimewouldhavebeenfataltome。IthasleftmealessardentloverthanIshouldperhapsotherwisehavebeen,butithasincreasedtenfoldmypowerofappreciatingyourmanycharmsandmydesirethatyoushouldbecomemywife。Pleaseletmehaveafewlinesofanswerbythebearertoletmeknowwhetherornotmysuitisaccepted。IfyouacceptmeIwillatoncecomeandtalkthematteroverwithMrandMrsAllaby,whomIshallhopeonedaytobeallowedtocallfatherandmother。
“Ioughttowarnyouthatintheeventofyourconsentingtobemywifeitmaybeyearsbeforeourunioncanbeconsummated,forI
cannotmarrytillacollegelivingisofferedme。If,therefore,youseefittorejectme,Ishallbegrievedratherthansurprised——