Thepsychologicalreasonsforthislienearthesurface。Whenwedropabstractionsandtakewhatwecallourwillintheact,weseethatitisaverycomplexfunction。Itinvolvesbothstimulationsandinhibitions;itfollowsgeneralizedhabits;itisescortedbyreflectivecriticisms;anditleavesagoodorabadtasteofitselfbehind,accordingtothemanneroftheperformance。Theresultisthat,quiteapartfromtheimmediatepleasurewhichanysensibleexperiencemaygiveus,ourowngeneralmoralattitudeinprocuringorundergoingtheexperiencebringswithitasecondarysatisfactionordistaste。Somemenandwomen,indeed,therearewhocanliveonsmilesandtheword“yes“forever。Butforothersindeedformost,thisistootepidandrelaxedamoralclimate。Passivehappinessisslackandinsipid,andsoongrowsmawkishandintolerable。Someausterityandwintrynegativity,someroughness,danger,stringency,andeffort,some“no!no!”mustbemixedin,toproducethesenseofanexistencewithcharacterandtextureandpower。Therangeofindividualdifferencesinthisrespectisenormous;butwhateverthemixtureofyesesandnoesmaybe,thepersonisinfalliblyawarewhenhehasstruckitintherightproportionFORHIM。This,hefeels,ismypropervocation,thisistheOPTIMUM,thelaw,thelifeformetolive。HereIfindthedegreeofequilibrium,safety,calm,andleisurewhichI
need,orhereIfindthechallenge,passion,fight,andhardshipwithoutwhichmysoul’senergyexpires。
Everyindividualsoul,inshort,likeeveryindividualmachineororganism,hasitsownbestconditionsofefficiency。Agivenmachinewillrunbestunderacertainsteam-pressure,acertainamperage;anorganismunderacertaindiet,weight,orexercise。
Youseemtodobest,Iheardadoctorsaytoapatient,atabout140millimetersofarterialtension。Anditisjustsowithoursundrysouls:somearehappiestincalmweather;someneedthesenseoftension,ofstrongvolition,tomakethemfeelaliveandwell。Fortheselattersouls,whateverisgainedfromdaytodaymustbepaidforbysacrificeandinhibition,orelseitcomestoocheapandhasnozest。
Nowwhencharactersofthislattersortbecomereligious,theyareapttoturntheedgeoftheirneedofeffortandnegativityagainsttheirnaturalself;andtheasceticlifegetsevolvedasaconsequence。