“EverythingIsawseemedtobeaburdentome；theearthseemedaccursedformysake：alltrees，plants，rocks，hills，andvalesseemedtobedressedinmourningandgroaning，undertheweightofthecurse，andeverythingaroundmeseemedtobeconspiringmyruin。Mysinsseemedtobelaidopen；sothatIthoughtthateveryoneIsawknewthem，andsometimesIwasalmostreadytoacknowledgemanythings，whichIthoughttheyknew：yeasometimesitseemedtomeasifeveryonewaspointingmeoutasthemostguiltywretchuponearth。Ihadnowsogreatasenseofthevanityandemptinessofallthingsherebelow，thatIknewthewholeworldcouldnotpossiblymakemehappy，no，northewholesystemofcreation。WhenIwakedinthemorning，thefirstthoughtwouldbe，Oh，mywretchedsoul，whatshallIdo，whereshallIgo？AndwhenIlaiddown，wouldsay，Ishallbeperhapsinhellbeforemorning。Iwouldmanytimeslookonthebeastswithenvy，wishingwithallmyheartIwasintheirplace，thatI
mighthavenosoultolose；andwhenIhaveseenbirdsflyingovermyhead，haveoftenthoughtwithinmyself，Oh，thatIcouldflyawayfrommydangeranddistress！Oh，howhappyshouldIbe，ifIwereintheirplace！”[82]
[82]TheLifeandJournaloftheRev。Mr。HenryAlline，Boston1806，pp。25，26。Iowemyacquaintancewiththisbooktomycolleague，Dr。BenjaminRand。
Envyoftheplacidbeastsseemstobeaverywidespreadaffectioninthistypeofsadness。
Theworstkindofmelancholyisthatwhichtakestheformofpanicfear。Hereisanexcellentexample，forpermissiontoprintwhichIhavetothankthesufferer。TheoriginalisinFrench，andthoughthesubjectwasevidentlyinabadnervousconditionatthetimeofwhichhewrites，hiscasehasotherwisethemeritofextremesimplicity。Itranslatefreely。