ThisconductonthepartofMr。Carker,andherhabitofoftenconsideringitwithwonderanduneasiness,begantoinvesthimwithanuncomfortablefascinationinFlorence\'sthoughts。Amoredistinctremembranceofhisfeatures,voice,andmanner:whichshesometimescourted,asameansofreducinghimtothelevelofarealpersonage,capableofexertingnogreatercharmoverherthananother:didnotremovethevagueimpression。
Andyetheneverfrowned,orlookeduponherwithanairofdislikeoranimosity,butwasalwayssmilingandserene。
Again,Florence,inpursuitofherstrongpurposewithreferencetoherfather,andhersteadyresolutiontobelievethatshewasherselfunwittinglytoblamefortheirsocoldanddistantrelations,wouldrecalltomindthatthisgentlemanwashisconfidentialfriend,andwouldthink,withananxiousheart,couldherstrugglingtendencytodislikeandfearhimbeapartofthatmisfortuneinher,whichhadturnedherfather\'sloveadrift,andlefthersoalone?Shedreadedthatitmightbe;sometimesbelieveditwas:thensheresolvedthatshewouldtrytoconquerthiswrongfeeling;persuadedherselfthatshewashonouredandencouragedbythenoticeofherfather\'sfriend;andhopedthatpatientobservationofhimandtrustinhimwouldleadherbleedingfeetalongthatstonyroadwhichendedinherfather\'sheart。
Thus,withnoonetoadviseher——forshecouldadvisewithnoonewithoutseemingtocomplainagainsthim——gentleFlorencetossedonanuneasyseaofdoubtandhope;andMr。Carker,likeascalymonsterofthedeep,swamdownbelow,andkepthisshiningeyeuponher。
Florencehadanewreasoninallthisforwishingtobeathomeagain。Herlonelylifewasbettersuitedtohercourseoftimidhopeanddoubt;andshefearedsometimes,thatinherabsenceshemightmisssomehopefulchanceoftestifyingheraffectionforherfather。Heavenknows,shemighthavesethermindatrest,poorchild!onthislastpoint;butherslightedlovewasflutteringwithinher,and,eveninhersleep,itflewawayindreams,andnestled,likeawanderingbirdcomehome,uponherfather\'sneck。