\"Oncemoreletusbegyoutobecalm,mydearboy。We’lltalkofallthisanothertime——Ishalldosowiththegreatestpleasure,forone,\"saidtheolddignitary,withasmile。
IvanPetrovitchgruntedandtwistedroundinhischair。GeneralEpanchinmovednervously。Thelatter’schiefhadstartedaconversationwiththewifeofthedignitary,andtooknonoticewhateveroftheprince,buttheoldladyveryoftenglancedathim,andlistenedtowhathewassaying。
\"No,Ihadbetterspeak,\"continuedtheprince,withanewoutburstoffeverishemotion,andturningtowardstheoldmanwithanairofconfidentialtrustfulness。\"Yesterday,AglayaIvanovnaforbademetotalk,andevenspecifiedtheparticularsubjectsImustnottouchupon——sheknowswellenoughthatIamoddwhenIgetuponthesematters。Iamnearlytwenty-sevenyearsold,andyetIknowIamlittlebetterthanachild。Ihavenorighttoexpressmyideas,andsaidsolongago。OnlyinMoscow,withRogojin,didIeverspeakabsolutelyfreely!HeandIreadPushkintogether——allhisworks。RogojinknewnothingofPushkin,hadnotevenheardhisname。IamalwaysafraidofspoilingagreatThoughtorIdeabymyabsurdmanner。Ihavenoeloquence,Iknow。Ialwaysmakethewronggestures——
inappropriategestures——andthereforeIdegradetheThought,andraisealaughinsteadofdoingmysubjectjustice。Ihavenosenseofproportioneither,andthatisthechiefthing。IknowitwouldbemuchbetterifIwerealwaystositstillandsaynothing。WhenIdoso,Iappeartobequiteasensiblesortofaperson,andwhat’smore,Ithinkaboutthings。ButnowImustspeak;itisbetterthatIshould。Ibegantospeakbecauseyoulookedsokindlyatme;youhavesuchabeautifulface。I
promisedAglayaIvanovnayesterdaythatIwouldnotspeakalltheevening。\"