Thusitcametopassthat,afterthefirstspurt,thebusinessfellbacktoaboutwhereithadbeenbeforeSusancame。
Albert,theAustrianwaiter,explainedtoSusanwhyitwasthatherpopularitydidthehouseapparentlysolittlegood——explainedwithtruthwhereshesuspectedkind-heartedplotting,thatshehadarresteditslatterlyswift-downwardslide。Shewasgladtohearwhathehadtosay,asitwasmostpleasanttohervanity;butshecouldnotgetoverthedepressionofthecentralfact——shewasnotmakingthesortofbusinesstojustifyaskingLangeformorethanboardandlodging;
shewasnotinthewayofmakingthemoneythatwaseachdaymorenecessary,asherlittlestoredwindled。
Thequestionofgettingmoneytoliveonisusuallydismissedinaprincelywaybywritersabouthumanlife。Itisinreality,exceptwiththefewrich,theever-presentquestion——asever-presentasthenecessityofbreathing——anditisnot,likebreathing,amattersettledautomatically。Itdominatesthought;itdeterminesaction。Toleaveitoutofaccountever,inwritingahumanhistory,istomisrepresentanddistortasutterlyaswouldaportraitpainterwhoneglectedtogivehissubjecteyes,orahead,even。Withtheoverwhelmingmassofus,moneyisatalltimesallourliveslongtheparamountquestion——fortobewithoutitisdestructionworsethandeath,andwearealmostallperilouslyneartobeingwithoutit。Thus,airilytopassjudgmentuponmenandwomenastotheirdoingsingettingmoneyfornecessaries,forwhatthecompulsionofcustomandhabithasmadenecessariestothem——airilytojudgethemfortheirdoingsinsuchdirestraitsislikesittingcalmlyonshoreandcriticizingtheconductofpassengersandsailorsinastormbesetsinkingship。Itisoneofthefavoritepastimesofthecomfortableclasses;itmakesanexcellentimpressionastoone”svirtueuponone”saudience;itgivesusapleasingsenseofsuperiordelicacyandhumor。Butitisnonethelessmeanandridiculous。Insteadofcondemnation,theworldneedstobestiritselftoremovethestupidandcruelcreaturesthatmakeevilconductnecessary;forcananyone,notaprig,saythatthesmallpartofthehumanracethatdoeswelldoessobecauseitisnaturallybetterthanthelargepartthatdoesill?
Springwasslowinopening。Susan”sonedresswasinadeplorablestate。Thelininghunginrags。Thenevergoodmaterialwasstretchedoutofshape,wasfrayedandworngrayinspots,wasbeyondbeingmadeupaspresentablebythemostcarefulpressingandcleaning。Shehadbeenforcedtobuyahat,shoes,underclothes。Shehadonlythreedollarsandafewcentsleft,andshesimplydidnotdarelayitalloutindressmaterials。Yet,lessthanallwouldnotbeenough;allwouldnotbeenough。