\"Weweretoopoortowritetooneanother,sowehadtosufferinsilence。\"
Thispathetichistoryseemedtobearthemarksoftruth;andI
thoughtitverypossiblethatMatonhadonlycomewithmetomakeherfortuneortodoratherbetterthanshehadbeendoing,whichwouldnotbedifficult。Shewastwenty—fiveyearsold,andasshehadneverbeenoutofBreslaubefore,shewoulddoubtlessbedelightedtoseewhattheworldwaslikeatDresden。IcouldnothelpfeelingthatIhadbeenafooltoburdenmyselfwiththegirl,whowouldmostlikelycostmealotofmoney;butstillIfoundmyconductexcusable,asthechanceswereahundredtooneagainstheracceptingtheproposalIhadbeenfoolishenoughtomake。Inshort,Iresolvedtoenjoythepleasureofhavingaprettygirlalltomyself,andI
determinednottodoanythingduringthejourney,beinganxioustoseewhetherhermoralqualitieswouldpleadasstronglywithmeasherphysicalbeautyundoubtedlydid。AtnightfallIstopped,wishingtospendthenightattheposting—station。Maton,whohadbeenveryhungryallday,buthadnotdaredtotellmeso,atewithanamazingandpleasingappetite;butnotbeingaccustomedtowine,shewouldhavefallenasleepattable,ifIhadnotbeggedhertoretire。Shebeggedmypardon,assuringmeshewouldnotletsuchathingoccuragain。Ismiledbywayofreply,andstayedatthetable,notlookingtoseewhethersheundressedorwenttobedinherclothes。
Iwenttobedmyselfsoonafter,andatfiveo’clockwasupagaintoorderthecoffee,andtoseethatthehorseswereputin。Matonwaslyingonherbedwithallherclotheson,fastasleep,andperspiringwiththeheat。Iwokeher,tellingherthatanothertimeshemustsleepmorecomfortably,assuchheatswereinjurioustohealth。