AsIwasdoingnogoodatschool,myfatherwiselytookmeawayataratherearlieragethanusual,andsentme(Oct。1825)toEdinburghUniversitywithmybrother,whereIstayedfortwoyearsorsessions。Mybrotherwascompletinghismedicalstudies,thoughIdonotbelieveheeverreallyintendedtopractise,andIwassenttheretocommencethem。ButsoonafterthisperiodIbecameconvincedfromvarioussmallcircumstancesthatmyfatherwouldleavemepropertyenoughtosubsistonwithsomecomfort,thoughIneverimaginedthatIshouldbesorichamanasIam;butmybeliefwassufficienttocheckanystrenuouseffortstolearnmedicine。
TheinstructionatEdinburghwasaltogetherbylectures,andthesewereintolerablydull,withtheexceptionofthoseonchemistrybyHope;buttomymindtherearenoadvantagesandmanydisadvantagesinlecturescomparedwithreading。Dr。Duncan’slecturesonMateriaMedicaat8o’clockonawinter’smorningaresomethingfearfultoremember。Dr。——madehislecturesonhumananatomyasdullashewashimself,andthesubjectdisgustedme。IthasprovedoneofthegreatestevilsinmylifethatI
wasnoturgedtopractisedissection,forIshouldsoonhavegotovermydisgust;andthepracticewouldhavebeeninvaluableforallmyfuturework。Thishasbeenanirremediableevil,aswellasmyincapacitytodraw。Ialsoattendedregularlytheclinicalwardsinthehospital。Someofthecasesdistressedmeagooddeal,andIstillhavevividpicturesbeforemeofsomeofthem;butIwasnotsofoolishastoallowthistolessenmyattendance。Icannotunderstandwhythispartofmymedicalcoursedidnotinterestmeinagreaterdegree;forduringthesummerbeforecomingtoEdinburghIbeganattendingsomeofthepoorpeople,chieflychildrenandwomeninShrewsbury:IwrotedownasfullanaccountasIcouldofthecasewithallthesymptoms,andreadthemaloudtomyfather,whosuggestedfurtherinquiriesandadvisedmewhatmedicinestogive,whichImadeupmyself。AtonetimeIhadatleastadozenpatients,andIfeltakeeninterestinthework。Myfather,whowasbyfarthebestjudgeofcharacterwhomIeverknew,declaredthatIshouldmakeasuccessfulphysician,——meaningbythisonewhowouldgetmanypatients。Hemaintainedthatthechiefelementofsuccesswasexcitingconfidence;butwhathesawinmewhichconvincedhimthatIshouldcreateconfidenceI
knownot。IalsoattendedontwooccasionstheoperatingtheatreinthehospitalatEdinburgh,andsawtwoverybadoperations,oneonachild,butIrushedawaybeforetheywerecompleted。NordidIeverattendagain,forhardlyanyinducementwouldhavebeenstrongenoughtomakemedoso;thisbeinglongbeforetheblesseddaysofchloroform。Thetwocasesfairlyhauntedmeformanyalongyear。
MybrotherstayedonlyoneyearattheUniversity,sothatduringthesecondyearIwaslefttomyownresources;andthiswasanadvantage,forIbecamewellacquaintedwithseveralyoungmenfondofnaturalscience。