Evenatthattime,Ihadnotyetconqueredmyaversiontothedrynessofalifeofstudy。Iwouldstillbemerrilydisposedattimes;andasmypleasureswere(tosaytheleast)undignified,andIwasnotonlywellknownandhighlyconsidered,butgrowingtowardstheelderlyman,thisincoherencyofmylifewasdailygrowingmoreunwelcome。ItwasonthissidethatmynewpowertemptedmeuntilIfellinslavery。Ihadbuttodrinkthecup,todoffatoncethebodyofthenotedprofessor,andtoassume,likeathickcloak,thatofEdwardHyde。Ismiledatthenotion;
itseemedtomeatthetimetobehumorous;andImademypreparationswiththemoststudiouscare。ItookandfurnishedthathouseinSohotowhichHydewastrackedbythepolice;andengagedashousekeeperacreaturewhomIwellknewtobesilentandunscrupulous。Ontheotherside,IannouncedtomyservantsthataMrHyde(whomIdescribed)wastohavefulllibertyandpoweraboutmyhouseinthesquare;and,toparrymishaps,Ievencalledandmademyselfafamiliarobjectinmysecondcharacter。Inextdrewupthatwilltowhichyousomuchobjected;sothatifanythingbefellmeinthepersonofDrJekyll,IcouldenteronthatofEdwardHydewithoutpecuniaryloss。Andthusfortified,asIsupposed,oneveryside,Ibegantoprofitbythestrangeimmunitiesofmyposition。
Menhavebeforehiredbravostotransacttheircrimes,whiletheirownpersonandreputationsatundershelter。Iwasthefirstthateverdidsoforhispleasures。Iwasthefirstthatcouldthusplodinthepubliceyewithaloadofgenialrespectability,andinamoment,likeaschoolboy,stripofftheselendingsandspringheadlongintotheseaofliberty。Butforme,inmyimpenetrablemantle,thesafetywascomplete。Thinkofit-Ididnotevenexist!Letmebutescapeintomylaboratorydoor,givemebutasecondortwotomixandswallowthedraughtthatIhadalwaysstandingready;and,whateverhehaddone,EdwardHydewouldpassawaylikeastainofbreathuponamirror;andthereinhisstead,quietlyathome,trimmingthemidnightlampinhisstudy,amanwhocouldaffordtolaughatsuspicion,wouldbeHenryJekyll。
ThepleasureswhichImadehastetoseekinmydisguisewere,asIhavesaid,undignified;Iwouldscarceuseaharderterm。ButinthehandsofEdwardHydetheysoonbegantoturntowardsthemonstrous。WhenIwouldcomebackfromtheseexcursions,Iwasoftenplungedintoakindofwonderatmyvicariousdepravity。ThisfamiliarthatIcalledoutofmyownsoul,andsentforthalonetodohisgoodpleasure,wasabeinginherentlymalignandvillainous;hiseveryactandthoughtcentredonself;drinkingpleasurewithbestialavidityfromanydegreeoftorturetoanother;relentlesslikeamanofstone。HenryJekyllstoodattimesaghastbeforetheactsofEdwardHyde;butthesituationwasapartfromordinarylaws,andinsidiouslyrelaxedthegraspofconscience。ItwasHyde,afterall,andHydealone,thatwasguilty。Jekyllwasnoworse;hewokeagaintohisgoodqualitiesseeminglyunimpaired;hewouldevenmakehaste,whereitwaspossible,toundotheevildonebyHyde。Andthushisconscienceslumbered。
IntothedetailsoftheinfamyatwhichIthusconnived(forevennowIcanscarcegrantthatIcommittedit)Ihavenodesignofentering。I