Thesecondpainwhichwillafflictthesoulsofthedamnedinhellisthepainofconscience。Justasindeadbodieswormsareengenderedbyputrefaction,sointhesoulsofthelosttherearisesaperpetualremorsefromtheputrefactionofsin,thestingofconscience,theworm,asPopeInnocenttheThirdcallsit,ofthetriplesting。Thefirststinginflictedbythiscruelwormwillbethememoryofpastpleasures。Owhatadreadfulmemorywillthatbe!Inthelakeofall-devouringflametheproudkingwillrememberthepompsofhiscourt,thewisebutwickedmanhislibrariesandinstrumentsofresearch,theloverofartisticpleasureshismarblesandpicturesandotherarttreasures,hewhodelightedinthepleasuresofthetablehisgorgeousfeasts,hisdishespreparedwithsuchdelicacy,hischoicewines;themiserwillrememberhishoardofgold,therobberhisill-gottenwealth,theangryandrevengefulandmercilessmurdererstheirdeedsofbloodandviolenceinwhichtheyrevelled,theimpureandadulteroustheunspeakableandfilthypleasuresinwhichtheydelighted。
Theywillrememberallthisandloathethemselvesandtheirsins。Forhowmiserablewillallthosepleasuresseemtothesoulcondemnedtosufferinhellfireforagesandages。Howtheywillrageandfumetothinkthattheyhavelosttheblissofheavenforthedrossofearth,forafewpiecesofmetal,forvainhonours,forbodilycomforts,foratinglingofthenerves。Theywillrepentindeed:andthisisthesecondstingofthewormofconscience,alateandfruitlesssorrowforsinscommitted。Divinejusticeinsiststhattheunderstandingofthosemiserablewretchesbefixedcontinuallyonthesinsofwhichtheywereguilty,andmoreover,assaintAugustinepointsout,GodwillimparttothemHisownknowledgeofsin,sothatsinwillappeartotheminallitshideousmaliceasitappearstotheeyesofGodHimself。Theywillbeholdtheirsinsinalltheirfoulnessandrepentbutitwillbetoolateandthentheywillbewailthegoodoccasionswhichtheyneglected。Thisisthelastanddeepestandmostcruelstingofthewormofconscience。Theconsciencewillsay:Youhadtimeandopportunitytorepentandwouldnot。Youwerebroughtupreligiouslybyyourparents。
Youhadthesacramentsandgraceandindulgencesofthechurchtoaidyou。
YouhadtheministerofGodtopreachtoyou,tocallyoubackwhenyouhadstrayed,toforgiveyouyoursins,nomatterhowmany,howabominable,ifonlyyouhadconfessedandrepented。No。Youwouldnot。Youfloutedtheministersofholyreligion,youturnedyourbackontheconfessional,youwalloweddeeperanddeeperinthemireofsin。Godappealedtoyou,threatenedyou,entreatedyoutoreturntoHim。O,whatshame,whatmisery!
TheRuleroftheuniverseentreatedyou,acreatureofclay,toloveHimWhomadeyouandtokeepHislaw。No。Youwouldnot。Andnow,thoughyouweretofloodallhellwithyourtearsifyoucouldstillweep,allthatseaofrepentancewouldnotgainforyouwhatasingletearoftruerepentanceshedduringyourmortallifewouldhavegainedforyou。Youimplorenowamomentofearthlylifewhereintorepent:Invain。Thattimeisgone: