ThenecessityoftakingsomeactiontoavertwhatInowrealizedasaninfamypresseduponme,yetinconflictwiththepressureofthisnecessitytherepersistedthatoldrebellion,thatbitternesswhichhadbeengrowingalltheseyearsagainstthemanwho,aboveallothers,seemedtometorepresenttheforcessettingatnoughtmyachievements,bringingmetothispass
IthoughtofappealingtoLeonardDickinson,whosurely,ifheknewofit,wouldnotpermitthisthingtobedone;andhewastheonlymanwiththepossibleexceptionofMillerGorsewhomightbeabletorestrainJuddJason.ButIdelayeduntilaftertheluncheonhour,whenIcalledupthebankonthetelephone,todiscoverthatitwasclosed.IhadforgottenthatthedaywasSaturday.IwaspreparedtosaythatIwouldwithdrawfromthecampaign,warnKrebsmyselfifthiskindoftacticswerenotsuppressed.ButIcouldnotgetthebanker.ThenIbegantohavedoubtsofDickinson\'spowerinthematter.JuddJasonhadneverbeentractable,byanymeans;hehadalwaysmaintainedaconsiderableindependenceofthefinancialpowers,andto-daynotonlyfinancialcontrol,butthedominanceofJasonhimselfwasatstake.Hewouldfightforittothelastditch,andmakeuseofanymeans.No,itwasofnousetoappealtohim.Whatthen?Well,therewasareaction,oranattemptatone.
Krebshadnotbeenbornyesterday,hehadavoidedthewilesofthepoliticiansheretofore,hewouldn\'tbefoolenoughtobetakeninnow.I
toldmyselfthatifIwerenotinastateborderingonanervousbreakdown,Ishouldlaughatsuchmorbidfears,Isteadiedmyselfsufficientlytodictatetheextractfrommyspeechthatwastobepublished.Iwastomakeaddressesattwohalls,alternatingwithParks,themayoraltycandidate.Atfouro\'clockIwentbacktomyroomintheClubtotrytogetsomerest
Seddon\'sHall,theplaceofmyfirstmeeting,wasjammedthatSaturdaynight.Iwentthroughmyspeechautomatically,asinadream,thehabitoflongyearsassertingitself.Andyet——soIwastoldafterwards——mydeliverywasnotmechanical,andIactuallyachievedmoreemphasis,gaveagreaterimpressionofconvictionthanatanytimesincethenightIhadlostmycontrolandviolentlydenouncedthereformers.BysomeastonishingsubconsciousprocessIhadregainedmymanner,buttheapplausecametomeasfromadistance.Notonlywasmymindnotthere;